Tuesday, December 09, 2003
Sunday, 30.11.2003
We were until 4am at the Matura-dance (by the way, the motto was “November Rain”), and then Bernhard, Birgit and I went home by feet. There we went to bed immediately. We got up at about 11.30am und had breakfast (Bernhard and I). Then we played computer games. At about 3pm Tatjana came round and she and Birgit made pizza. My parents were at a birthday-celebration of a neighbour. We ate at around 4.30pm, then Tatjana went home and Birgit, Bernhard and I watched “Finding Nemo”. Actually we should have met the others at the cinema, but we were too tired. At about 6.30pm Bernhard was taken home and I went online to work on my Blog. Now it is also available in Brazilian (Thanks, João!). Unfortunately I couldn’t finish everything. Because I was still quite tired, I went to bed early, but then I read for a long time and so I fell asleep late.
Monday, 1.12.2003
Today in the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar: a little train
Today in the Rubbing-Advent-Calendar: a candle (1st of 8 required)
Monday, Monday… I should make a new song out of this… because my Mondays are boring and tiring every time, but then I don’t have to tell it anymore! Well, in train I wrote a mail to João, then translated my Blog, because I haven’t finished it until Sunday. At uni there was nothing really interesting… I hope this will change… I started to write a letter to João there, but I haven’t finished them already…
When I came back home at 6pm, there was a letter waiting from Andrea from the US. Nice photo! And yes, João, another pen pal! ;-) Then I ate and then I went online and talked with João and Gitschi and worked on my Blog. It is getting better everyday… now I only have to find a solution for all the comments… and I still don’t know how I can put the pictures of my friends there… Does anybody know what I can do?
At 10pm my girlfriend phoned me. We talked about her dance most, but then she asked what there is now with us… but we spoke not much about it on phone because I didn’t want it… so we probably meet next Saturday and talk then.
Oh, for all, who don’t know, what Advent-Calendar is (are they everywhere?): this is a calendar for the first 24 days of December. Inside the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar there is behind every of the 24 little windows (windowzinho ^^) a little bit of chocolate in a definite shape. The Rubbing-Advent-Calendar actually is something like a lottery-ticket. There are 24 little fields you can rub off and when you have a firm number of the same fields, you win.
Tuesday, 2.12.2003
Today in the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar: a star
Today in the Rubbing-Advent-Calendar: a tree (1st of 7 required)
I felt not really fine today, but I thought it was only because of too less sleep. I went to university then and stayed there for the Mathematics lesson. Then I went back to Graz, where I bought Christmas cards and stamps. About half an hour later I went to university by bus to meet my friend Tanja there. I had to wait a bit, but then she had free. We waited for about an hour, I helped her with her Latin homework and we talked a lot, and then we went to the PDC and did what we were supposed to do there: donated our plasma. We both needed very long, Tanja even longer than I, although she only donates three quarters of what I donate…
Then we went back to university, finished the Latin homework, and shared letters to read (she has a lot of different pen friends). Then she had her Latin lessons and I went to “my” comic shop. I bought two new manga (Inu Yasha 10 and Marmalade Boy 1, both very good!) and went to train station by bus after that. There I had to wait a bit and then went to Leibnitz.
At home I really felt not good, and I was very hungry. I ate and then watched TV. I went to bed at about 9pm and read there for about an hour.
Wednesday, 3.12.2003
Today in the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar: a present
Today in the Rubbing-Advent-Calendar: a star (1st of 11 required)
I still felt not good in the morning so I decided to stay at home. I think it is better to stay at home and sleep and maybe be well afterwards than drag the illness until it is really bad. I thought I wouldn’t be able to sleep long, because I slept really long and good before, but then I slept until noon… When I got up I watched TV a bit, had a shower and then lunch.
The afternoon I spent with my sister, we talked a lot, I designed a new paper and wrote a reply to João’s last letter. Because the letter wasn’t too short I wrote quite long, so it was 9.30pm when I finished. Then I ate a bit and watched TV and after that I went to bed. I felt really better and was prepared for a new hard uni-day.
Thursday, 4.12.2003
Today in the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar: a clover
Today in the Rubbing-Advent-Calendar: a snowflake (1st of 5 required [what an ugly word…])
Today I felt much better than yesterday, I only had a little cold. I stayed at university for three lessons, then I wanted to go to a Chinese restaurant, but it wasn’t open (it was 11.15am and it opens at 11.30am), so I went to a shop called Libro, where I often go, only to look around. But I saw such nice things there, that I bought some presents… I hope they are not too heavy. After that I went back to the Chinese restaurant and ate there. It was quite good.
Later I went to the post office to buy stamps and then returned to university, where I had nothing to do until 4pm (it was a bit after 1pm). I wrote letters to Sara and Andrea from Minneapolis, USA, and to João Gabriel (+ a little note for Daniela). All of this I want to post on Tuesday, I hope it arrives short before Christmas then.
At 4pm I had a silly lesson (silly because at 5pm my Japanese course begins and I missed the first 20 minutes). At 5.15pm the lesson was finished and then I went up to my Japanese class. Although our university is only in one house I had enough time to eat an apple on the way… My Japanese class was nice. If I would be able to learn all the vocabulary, it would be perfect. After the lesson my Japanese teacher, another student and I went back to Graz by train. My teacher had her Katana with her and showed it me in train. Wow, the first time I saw such a sword so near! It was really beautiful. My teacher has a sword-sport-course after the Japanese lesson and so she had the sword with her. At Graz I had to wait a bit and then went back home.
Friday, 5.12.2003
KRAMPUS’ DAY
Today in the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar: a squirrel
Today in the Rubbing-Advent-Calendar: a candle (2nd of 8 required)
Now I have a stronger cold, paired with headache… this is not nice. But I am a hard guy and so I went to Leoben. Although I had not slept much I was really not tired. I had only physics exercises, and had to do one exercise and I could do it. I was happy, that I got one of the exercises I was able to do. During the exercise suddenly someone phoned me on my mobile (but the sounds were off). It was Tanja’s sister Bianca. She wrote me a message then, asking me if I wanted to do rubbish on Dec 16 (when the Lord of the Rings – Triple Feature takes place in Leibnitz). I knew immediately that it had something to do with disguising. Then she told me that she wants to make Lórien-capes for everyone, but Tanja thought this was silly and only wanted to wear one if I also wear one (I don’t understand why she chose me)… well, I wanted to dress up before, so this was okay for me (and not because I want to be against Tanja). But maybe I can dress up as Gandalf, this would be so great!
After the exercises I went back home. At home I ate and the slept the whole afternoon. In the evening I talked by mobile-messages to Tanja and then my mother, my sister and I baked cookies (Gingerbread and Butter-Cookies). I love to bake cookies, because this is the real start of Christmas-season for me, and not the first Advent or the decoration of the streets.
Later I watched TV with my sister (well, she slept) and then went to bed.
Saturday, 6.12.2003
NIKOLAUS’ DAY
Today in the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar: a Nikolaus
Today in the Rubbing-Advent-Calendar: a sweet (1st of 5 required)
This morning I was not so well, I got a nice little cold (maybe I shouldn’t have slept naked… ^^). In the morning I did not much, watched TV, wrote etc. In the afternoon Tina was coming here because we had to talk. I told her about my feelings to her, that I only have friendly [to João: freundschaftlich] feelings for her and that I don’t think this is good for our relationship and so we broke up finally. But it wasn’t really bad, because she knew before there was something wrong and she really responded very cool and not like I supposed… I thought she would maybe start to cry or think that she did something wrong or that I am in love with another girl. Then we went for a walk. I think she accepted everything now, I really hope so.
She went home at about 6pm. My parents went to a concert then and so I was alone… I went online and had a long chat with João, and I also talked to Gitschi and a girl from Thailand that knew Tanja (what a surprise!). My sister arrived back home in the meantime and after I went offline we talked and watched TV. Later we watched “Interview with a Vampire” (I hope this is the English title), and I had such a good idea for a story… but I don’t know how to start…
Interlude I: Friendship
While going by train I have always so much (maybe too much… ^^) time to think about anything. Last weeks I thought about friendship very often, chiefly because of the thing with my ex-girlfriend (wow, this word sounds hard, let’s say “with Tina”). What is friendship? When does acquaintance end and friendship start? When does deep friendship end and love start? What is the difference between friendship and love? Well, I don’t really know. I, as a person who is hardly ever talking about his true feelings and tries to be nice and kind to everyone, can’t say. Have I really ever felt love? I don’t think so. But what is love? Is this really only a word for thousands of feelings? Or does everybody have the same opinion of what love is? But this interlude titled “Friendship” so I want to talk about this now. Friends are for me persons I often want to meet or talk to, and when I can’t see them or talk to them often I really feel not well. But I could never tell them all my secrets like other people do. And I can’t ever tell them everything I think. Maybe some of you think now that I am a strange person, but it isn’t so, that I don’t trust them, but that there are things I don’t want to talk about. Or maybe not special things, but not all I think. I can’t say things like “I really like you so much” into my friend’s faces. But I can write it. Why is there a difference between the written and the spoken word? Why can’t I speak about my feelings openly? Am I afraid of showing a weakness? But that wouldn’t really fit to my character, I have no problems to talk about my mistakes and character-weaknesses… And I also have problems to ask my friends about love and talk to them about it… why is this so? I think I have to hear into myself and think about that on the next train-trips.
We were until 4am at the Matura-dance (by the way, the motto was “November Rain”), and then Bernhard, Birgit and I went home by feet. There we went to bed immediately. We got up at about 11.30am und had breakfast (Bernhard and I). Then we played computer games. At about 3pm Tatjana came round and she and Birgit made pizza. My parents were at a birthday-celebration of a neighbour. We ate at around 4.30pm, then Tatjana went home and Birgit, Bernhard and I watched “Finding Nemo”. Actually we should have met the others at the cinema, but we were too tired. At about 6.30pm Bernhard was taken home and I went online to work on my Blog. Now it is also available in Brazilian (Thanks, João!). Unfortunately I couldn’t finish everything. Because I was still quite tired, I went to bed early, but then I read for a long time and so I fell asleep late.
Monday, 1.12.2003
Today in the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar: a little train
Today in the Rubbing-Advent-Calendar: a candle (1st of 8 required)
Monday, Monday… I should make a new song out of this… because my Mondays are boring and tiring every time, but then I don’t have to tell it anymore! Well, in train I wrote a mail to João, then translated my Blog, because I haven’t finished it until Sunday. At uni there was nothing really interesting… I hope this will change… I started to write a letter to João there, but I haven’t finished them already…
When I came back home at 6pm, there was a letter waiting from Andrea from the US. Nice photo! And yes, João, another pen pal! ;-) Then I ate and then I went online and talked with João and Gitschi and worked on my Blog. It is getting better everyday… now I only have to find a solution for all the comments… and I still don’t know how I can put the pictures of my friends there… Does anybody know what I can do?
At 10pm my girlfriend phoned me. We talked about her dance most, but then she asked what there is now with us… but we spoke not much about it on phone because I didn’t want it… so we probably meet next Saturday and talk then.
Oh, for all, who don’t know, what Advent-Calendar is (are they everywhere?): this is a calendar for the first 24 days of December. Inside the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar there is behind every of the 24 little windows (windowzinho ^^) a little bit of chocolate in a definite shape. The Rubbing-Advent-Calendar actually is something like a lottery-ticket. There are 24 little fields you can rub off and when you have a firm number of the same fields, you win.
Tuesday, 2.12.2003
Today in the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar: a star
Today in the Rubbing-Advent-Calendar: a tree (1st of 7 required)
I felt not really fine today, but I thought it was only because of too less sleep. I went to university then and stayed there for the Mathematics lesson. Then I went back to Graz, where I bought Christmas cards and stamps. About half an hour later I went to university by bus to meet my friend Tanja there. I had to wait a bit, but then she had free. We waited for about an hour, I helped her with her Latin homework and we talked a lot, and then we went to the PDC and did what we were supposed to do there: donated our plasma. We both needed very long, Tanja even longer than I, although she only donates three quarters of what I donate…
Then we went back to university, finished the Latin homework, and shared letters to read (she has a lot of different pen friends). Then she had her Latin lessons and I went to “my” comic shop. I bought two new manga (Inu Yasha 10 and Marmalade Boy 1, both very good!) and went to train station by bus after that. There I had to wait a bit and then went to Leibnitz.
At home I really felt not good, and I was very hungry. I ate and then watched TV. I went to bed at about 9pm and read there for about an hour.
Wednesday, 3.12.2003
Today in the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar: a present
Today in the Rubbing-Advent-Calendar: a star (1st of 11 required)
I still felt not good in the morning so I decided to stay at home. I think it is better to stay at home and sleep and maybe be well afterwards than drag the illness until it is really bad. I thought I wouldn’t be able to sleep long, because I slept really long and good before, but then I slept until noon… When I got up I watched TV a bit, had a shower and then lunch.
The afternoon I spent with my sister, we talked a lot, I designed a new paper and wrote a reply to João’s last letter. Because the letter wasn’t too short I wrote quite long, so it was 9.30pm when I finished. Then I ate a bit and watched TV and after that I went to bed. I felt really better and was prepared for a new hard uni-day.
Thursday, 4.12.2003
Today in the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar: a clover
Today in the Rubbing-Advent-Calendar: a snowflake (1st of 5 required [what an ugly word…])
Today I felt much better than yesterday, I only had a little cold. I stayed at university for three lessons, then I wanted to go to a Chinese restaurant, but it wasn’t open (it was 11.15am and it opens at 11.30am), so I went to a shop called Libro, where I often go, only to look around. But I saw such nice things there, that I bought some presents… I hope they are not too heavy. After that I went back to the Chinese restaurant and ate there. It was quite good.
Later I went to the post office to buy stamps and then returned to university, where I had nothing to do until 4pm (it was a bit after 1pm). I wrote letters to Sara and Andrea from Minneapolis, USA, and to João Gabriel (+ a little note for Daniela). All of this I want to post on Tuesday, I hope it arrives short before Christmas then.
At 4pm I had a silly lesson (silly because at 5pm my Japanese course begins and I missed the first 20 minutes). At 5.15pm the lesson was finished and then I went up to my Japanese class. Although our university is only in one house I had enough time to eat an apple on the way… My Japanese class was nice. If I would be able to learn all the vocabulary, it would be perfect. After the lesson my Japanese teacher, another student and I went back to Graz by train. My teacher had her Katana with her and showed it me in train. Wow, the first time I saw such a sword so near! It was really beautiful. My teacher has a sword-sport-course after the Japanese lesson and so she had the sword with her. At Graz I had to wait a bit and then went back home.
Friday, 5.12.2003
KRAMPUS’ DAY
Today in the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar: a squirrel
Today in the Rubbing-Advent-Calendar: a candle (2nd of 8 required)
Now I have a stronger cold, paired with headache… this is not nice. But I am a hard guy and so I went to Leoben. Although I had not slept much I was really not tired. I had only physics exercises, and had to do one exercise and I could do it. I was happy, that I got one of the exercises I was able to do. During the exercise suddenly someone phoned me on my mobile (but the sounds were off). It was Tanja’s sister Bianca. She wrote me a message then, asking me if I wanted to do rubbish on Dec 16 (when the Lord of the Rings – Triple Feature takes place in Leibnitz). I knew immediately that it had something to do with disguising. Then she told me that she wants to make Lórien-capes for everyone, but Tanja thought this was silly and only wanted to wear one if I also wear one (I don’t understand why she chose me)… well, I wanted to dress up before, so this was okay for me (and not because I want to be against Tanja). But maybe I can dress up as Gandalf, this would be so great!
After the exercises I went back home. At home I ate and the slept the whole afternoon. In the evening I talked by mobile-messages to Tanja and then my mother, my sister and I baked cookies (Gingerbread and Butter-Cookies). I love to bake cookies, because this is the real start of Christmas-season for me, and not the first Advent or the decoration of the streets.
Later I watched TV with my sister (well, she slept) and then went to bed.
Saturday, 6.12.2003
NIKOLAUS’ DAY
Today in the Chocolate-Advent-Calendar: a Nikolaus
Today in the Rubbing-Advent-Calendar: a sweet (1st of 5 required)
This morning I was not so well, I got a nice little cold (maybe I shouldn’t have slept naked… ^^). In the morning I did not much, watched TV, wrote etc. In the afternoon Tina was coming here because we had to talk. I told her about my feelings to her, that I only have friendly [to João: freundschaftlich] feelings for her and that I don’t think this is good for our relationship and so we broke up finally. But it wasn’t really bad, because she knew before there was something wrong and she really responded very cool and not like I supposed… I thought she would maybe start to cry or think that she did something wrong or that I am in love with another girl. Then we went for a walk. I think she accepted everything now, I really hope so.
She went home at about 6pm. My parents went to a concert then and so I was alone… I went online and had a long chat with João, and I also talked to Gitschi and a girl from Thailand that knew Tanja (what a surprise!). My sister arrived back home in the meantime and after I went offline we talked and watched TV. Later we watched “Interview with a Vampire” (I hope this is the English title), and I had such a good idea for a story… but I don’t know how to start…
Interlude I: Friendship
While going by train I have always so much (maybe too much… ^^) time to think about anything. Last weeks I thought about friendship very often, chiefly because of the thing with my ex-girlfriend (wow, this word sounds hard, let’s say “with Tina”). What is friendship? When does acquaintance end and friendship start? When does deep friendship end and love start? What is the difference between friendship and love? Well, I don’t really know. I, as a person who is hardly ever talking about his true feelings and tries to be nice and kind to everyone, can’t say. Have I really ever felt love? I don’t think so. But what is love? Is this really only a word for thousands of feelings? Or does everybody have the same opinion of what love is? But this interlude titled “Friendship” so I want to talk about this now. Friends are for me persons I often want to meet or talk to, and when I can’t see them or talk to them often I really feel not well. But I could never tell them all my secrets like other people do. And I can’t ever tell them everything I think. Maybe some of you think now that I am a strange person, but it isn’t so, that I don’t trust them, but that there are things I don’t want to talk about. Or maybe not special things, but not all I think. I can’t say things like “I really like you so much” into my friend’s faces. But I can write it. Why is there a difference between the written and the spoken word? Why can’t I speak about my feelings openly? Am I afraid of showing a weakness? But that wouldn’t really fit to my character, I have no problems to talk about my mistakes and character-weaknesses… And I also have problems to ask my friends about love and talk to them about it… why is this so? I think I have to hear into myself and think about that on the next train-trips.
